Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Easily Influenced

I'm really fucking seriously easily influenced. And I FUCKING Hate it!!!
Just had a short chat with the IT guy and he emphasized again there my position is very criticle. And when I told him that I was thinking of furthering my studies, he just brushed me off. He said I should be more "cunning" and more "smart"... He thinks I can make use of this to build my wealth. He says I'm single... and everybody has needs. And he warned me against having sex with my boss. He talks lots of crap sometimes... and I don't think it make any sense. I'm actually influenced by all these crap. Shit manzzz....

Well, I think my boss is a very nice boss... but I don't want to make use of him! And to get sell my body just to become rich is a big NO NO. I really want to learn as much as possible and to become important though... to be someone he cannot do without. But one thing the IT guy said is quite true, studying might hinder my work. But I'm getting old.... ahhh... I feel sooo stuck. What should I do???????????????????????????????????????????????? help...