I realise I did not blog the ENTIRE YEAR OF 2006 !!! Can you imagine? It is like skipping an ENTIRE year of your life... as if everything was smooth and nothing interesting enough for me to blog about. In fact, it's not.
Year 2006 for me is full of changes, a rocky and unstable period because I was new to the outside world, a world filled with ugly & bitchy bosses, office politics and even unequal standards.
And society does show favouratism. The world which I always thought was fair, is simply not. "Life is not fair. And It never will be."(Mr Choo once told me this)
It was a stressful year for me. To top it all, I have no idea what I want out of life. I've got no goals, no plans for the future...everything seems too far away. But I have ambitions... a whole lot of them.
I've learnt quite a fair bit about life in the year 2006.
Family is really important and I regretted for neglecting them quite abit last year due to work, boyfriend, friends. However, I feel that the year 2006 was also a time I was trying to "break away" from the concept that I'm still a kid/student in school. I was struggling to breath. Struggling to prove my worth, struggling to say "HEY, I can stand on my own now. Please leave me ALONE"
My grandma's nagging was terrible in the Year 2006. It's better now. I'm not sure is it because she gave up on me or she just can't be bothered now. (Nagging is tiring as well...)
Nevertheless, I love my grandmother dearly. Shes the only grandmother I have left and despite her bad mouth and hot temper, she will still be my most beloved grandma. I know she nags because she loves me, but who likes listening to naggings?
Ok, enough on the naggings...
To make things worse, I was emotionally hurt by my bf in the year 2006. It was the period between Nov ~ Dec 2006.
He's such a jerk (even when I think of it now). He drove to Cameron Highlands with his poly ex girlfriend for a holiday. I was devastated... I allowed him to go because I didn't want to seem like a possesive and an "I want him all to myself!!!" kind of girlfriend. To make things worse, he shared a room with his ex gf. Claiming that they wanted to save money. I was shattered. I can picture them joking and enjoying themselves in that shared room.
I cried countless nights over this and threw useless tantrums.
He threw my trust into the trashbin and I can never forgive nor forget him. That was the worse experience I've had in all my past relationships. A very painful experience.
With all these, I realise again how ugly love can be.
Lucky its all over now... but our relationship will never be the same again.
Year 2006 for me is full of changes, a rocky and unstable period because I was new to the outside world, a world filled with ugly & bitchy bosses, office politics and even unequal standards.
And society does show favouratism. The world which I always thought was fair, is simply not. "Life is not fair. And It never will be."(Mr Choo once told me this)
It was a stressful year for me. To top it all, I have no idea what I want out of life. I've got no goals, no plans for the future...everything seems too far away. But I have ambitions... a whole lot of them.
I've learnt quite a fair bit about life in the year 2006.
Family is really important and I regretted for neglecting them quite abit last year due to work, boyfriend, friends. However, I feel that the year 2006 was also a time I was trying to "break away" from the concept that I'm still a kid/student in school. I was struggling to breath. Struggling to prove my worth, struggling to say "HEY, I can stand on my own now. Please leave me ALONE"
My grandma's nagging was terrible in the Year 2006. It's better now. I'm not sure is it because she gave up on me or she just can't be bothered now. (Nagging is tiring as well...)
Nevertheless, I love my grandmother dearly. Shes the only grandmother I have left and despite her bad mouth and hot temper, she will still be my most beloved grandma. I know she nags because she loves me, but who likes listening to naggings?
Ok, enough on the naggings...
To make things worse, I was emotionally hurt by my bf in the year 2006. It was the period between Nov ~ Dec 2006.
He's such a jerk (even when I think of it now). He drove to Cameron Highlands with his poly ex girlfriend for a holiday. I was devastated... I allowed him to go because I didn't want to seem like a possesive and an "I want him all to myself!!!" kind of girlfriend. To make things worse, he shared a room with his ex gf. Claiming that they wanted to save money. I was shattered. I can picture them joking and enjoying themselves in that shared room.
I cried countless nights over this and threw useless tantrums.
He threw my trust into the trashbin and I can never forgive nor forget him. That was the worse experience I've had in all my past relationships. A very painful experience.
With all these, I realise again how ugly love can be.
Lucky its all over now... but our relationship will never be the same again.
2 comments:
why is it not the same? because it got better??? love, your bf.
oh dear... pls stop flirting with other guys over the sms ok???!!! love, your bf again.
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